This morning I posted on a thread in AAFQ on FL about women liking watching men fuck. I also recently did a random quiz, which included the question "have you ever had anyone question your gender?" I automatically answered no, as in the pure sense they haven't. However, if you look a little deeper there is slightly more to it than that.
Sexually speaking, a great deal (though not all) of my sexuality could easily be mistaken for that of a gay, male, butch dominant (or to quote someone recently "you're just a really sick hard gay top with a cunt aren't you?" - why yes, yes I am, thankyou for noticing).
Men engaged in SM and dominant/ submissive fucking can get me very hot. Consideration calls for some discretion here, but a great deal of my sexual fantasises involve various men I know well fucking and beating each other in various forms.
I think men can look glorious skewered on another man’s cock (preferably slightly against their wishes, as some sort of subordinate act). In fact I generally love watching men physically show their authority over other men, and subordinate males submitting. This incidentally extends way beyond the realms of sex or kink.
Two muscular male bodies grinding together can make me wet as hell. If the man on top pulls the bottoms hair and forced him down on his cock, orally or anally I am beside myself with orgasmic delight. Maybe a good punch here or there for good measure, And, what the hell, if some forced arse to mouth can be arranged all the better.
My own personal preferences reflect this. I like buggering men, I like making men service other men while I watch and compulsively orgasm like a fucking firework. One of my pleasures is having men get me off in some form while my own man is on his knees sucking their cock and looking for all the world like he wants to kill at least one of us. But fear not I keep him involved - I get him to pull my knickers down etc (Cosmo told me it's important to keep the spark alive in a relationship, and in my efforts to be a real girl I'm sure that's what they meant). To an extent during these times though I'm just getting my rocks off while I watch some damned fine humiliation/ gay SM porn tailored to my specific whims. I'm basically having an interactive wank while I watch the man I'm using to get off, shoot down my very reluctant man's throat.
I don't get off on camp men at all in this manner. Nor am I interested especially in mirror loving men whose muscles are for appearance. What I really like are muscles designed to work and the sort of men who have them. Fortunately for me this often plays in nicely to my enjoyment of seeing men physically or psychologically overpower each other.
When I take N out he gets a lot more female attention than one may imagine a 55 year old would. He also gets a lot of male attention – pretty subby boys love him, they're all big eyes and trembling lower lips etc (he still has that dominant vibe). The butch tops though, they like me. They look at me and even if they can't quite work things out, the more astute ones instinctively get that I'm the person to come through in an effort to get a piece of N. They also tend to bond with me quickly, often picking up on some social factors/ background first as a primary bonding move (there is very often a core link), then eventually as described at the beginning they decide I'm essentially a gay dominant dude. Or a pervert. Whatever.
And then the real fun starts, because seriously for a control freak sadist pervert like me, forcing the slave to take cocks in both ends, just for my entertainment, while I do whatever the hell I like is a fine way to spend a few hours.
